..are something I haven't done regularly, and will probably happen more often now as

1) Almost summer
2) Being the opinionated person I am, I've decided to reflect here, on the internet like just about everyone else, as opposed to subjecting actual humans to my sometimes extreme points of view (like the pointlessness of the current Western education system..and why world peace is highly unlikely) any and all updates on things like fighter jets... which don't seem to interest anyone I talk to.



Now, back to exam studying. > <

I've been thinking quite a bit about women lately. Maybe it's true what they say - Guys hit their prime when they turn 18. Maybe it's the lack of closure from the past two pseudo-relationships. Even though I think about them all the time, I find that I have no real interest in anyone I meet. One day she'll be my sunrise; soon we won't be able to stand each other. I figure I'll save us both the trouble.

Clearly, I'm not ready for a relationship. I still think about the last one. Enough about that.

I don't know if this is true for all guys, but I find it easier to speak with girls that I have liked, and those that have liked me back. The ones that don't hate you, anyway.

I finally passed my G2 road test! On my third attempt. I had to parallel park between pylons, which I'd never done before. Plus, it would have been really, really bad to have been failed by a female, oriental evaluator.

I finished reading the New Testament (a While ago, actually), and I wrote a few scenes for the screenplay. I don't know whether I'll be finished by the time school starts.

MCAT studying: I started another chapter. I think a new strategy is now in order: I'm going to read the things I'm interested in first. This may be dangerous, however, as I may not give enough time for the other things.. and will not be prepared for the test.

I met a long term goal this summer! I donated blood. It was a good experience, and I recommend it to anyone that can. I'd like to go again in September. I joined the frequent donator programme, so I have to make at least 4 full blood donations a year. It's sad - they said only about 3.5% of all Canadians donate blood. Then they complain about the emergency healthcare system..

I didn't get a job, so the monetary goal has not been achieved. However, I have abs. While this doesn't offset the former issue, it does help with self esteem, but only a bit.

Right now, I'm in the middle of updating the Stethoscope site. I should be done by tomorrow, after which = MCAT cram time!

Realistically, I think I can finish the physics and biology section, before school starts.

I want to write a few more scenes for the screenplay, too- and start on Math. This will be the last year I have to take math in school. It MORtifies me. I did so bad last year.. and all I did was math. Then again, it was MAT137,  but that's just me rationalizing. I don't think I've been this scared.. since the math137 exam.

It looks like I'll be doing my undergrad in Chemistry. I haven't heard back from the Biochemistry or the Physiology departments.

I attended a MYAC meeting (I think this was one of my goals), as well as a Region of Peel Red Cross Youth Action Council meeting. I get to update the RYAC's website now, too. I'm hoping to participate in their emergency first responder programme.

I've enrolled in St. John's Standard First Aid + CPR C + Automatic Defibrilation course. It's a 3-day course. I've also applied to volunteer at Peel Health. Right now, it's in the police record check phase.

I picked up a Japanese book out of curiosity, while I was in the language section of the library for an intro to German book, so I can become conversational in German again. I was surprised to find that Japanese grammar is a lot like Hindi and Marathi grammar.


I don't think I've acheived much this summer, except for.. emotional maturity. Except that I'm dead scared for this school year. This IS my last chance. No more mistakes. I mess up now, and I've pretty much blown any chance at medicine. Everybody says this, but I truly can't imagine myself doing anything else. Plus, I have less options than my peers. They may be able to go to the States. I can't.
Quite a few people have connections. I don't. I look at this as a challenge, because this is close to what most first generation immigrants go through. It'll be a great story to tell, but I HAVE to do my part. I am my worst enemy. For my own sake, I hope there is a ceasefire - at least during this crucial time. The next three years determine my entire life. Even grad schools need you to have an A+ average in the final two years.


I have to constantly remind myself of this: There's plenty of time for dating and learning Japanese After I'm in, or even After I'm out. This is a lot like the wilderness. Strength, Intelligence and Status determine all. I went from 60-64% on tests to 80-83% in 4/5 subjects. The 5th was MAT137, and I'm happy I passed the course at all. This is improvement by about 20% points. Thus, if I start in the low-80s this year, this wound indicate that I can break 90s, and I NEED to break 90s in all my courses this year. 'Course, this is just to re-assure myself. I'd prefer to start in the high-80s, if not the 90s themselves.

I don't know whether working during the school year would be a good idea. I guess I'll be able to tell after the first set of exams.

There are quite a few scholarships for chemistry, at UofT, but the site doesn't mention for how much.
I think for tuitions + books, I'm going to need about 4000-6000 for next year. Yep. Everest. If the research goes well, I may be able to get a non-fastfood job next summer, and so, actually manage this :p

Anyhow, this is what's been on my mind lately. Bis Später! (= "later" in German).

P.S. I recommend reading Waiting by Ha Jin.